Today is quite a disheartening day for me. But, I really wanna thank God for opening my eyes to see beyond the pains, to see the bright side of every disappointment.

Woke up as usual for class at 9am. Waited as usual for transport by Wei Chuang. Waited and waited until nearly 9am… He didnt show up; also no sign of Gan and Chee Keng, the other two regular passengers. Not only them; throughout the waiting time, I did not see any other coursemates going to class as well… So, I believe, most probably the class is cancelled and I was not aware because I didnt attend last night’s tutorial.

True enough, on the way back to my room, I ran into Gan and he confirmed it… sigh… then, I should have slept longer (last night I slept at 5am by the way)… So, I decided to go back to sleep; the next class will be at 3pm.

But, what happened was, while I was trying to sleep, I was reminded that I didnt do my devotion last night (yup, my devotion is always before I sleep at night… it’s the most peaceful time for me). And not only that. I was suppose to wash my clothings in the morning too, cos I’m not sure when I’ll be going home; depends on my brother.

So, in my quiet time, I really thank God for waking me up to do my devotion, as well as to wash clothings. If I were to know it last night that there wont be any morning class today, I’ll surely wake up at noon; and by that time, my heart wont be right to do devotion anymore. And I’ll miss the sun to dry my clothings.

Next is, after my tutorial class at 3pm, I see many of my friends rushing for the convocation at main campus, while myself, I ask “Why did I choose NOT to go? Why??”. The feeling was enhance when I arrive back at my room just to realise that all my roommates are gone too…

Never felt such a deep loneliness for quite sometime already. Almost the whole campus is away, either to the convocation, or back home. Myself on the other hand, am still around, and lonely. Still, the unanswered question is, at least why didnt I join the others to convo??

So, after dinner, I straight away went to sleep… for 4 hours…

Woke up around 12am, sat at my laptop and blur…

Then, suddenly, I was prompted to listen to some songs from Don Moen’s album, Hiding Place. After a while, I was listening to “Psalm 23″, same album. While listening to the song, all the blur blur and down feelings were suddenly carried away, just like that ! and I felt SO MUCH comfort, peace, and calm !..  I went on further to read the full text of Psalm 23 and meditate on it. I felt even more assured and secured. And I thank God SO VERY much for leading me to this song.

God with me, I’m never alone. Thank you, Lord, very much !

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Don Moen – Psalm 23

Jesus, my shepherd and only provider
He makes me lie down in green pastures
He leads me beside the still water
He restores my soul

Surely goodness and mercy will follow me
All the days of my life
And I will dwell in His house forever
Until the end of time

Jesus, my shepherd and only provider
You make me lie down in green pastures
You lead me beside the still water
You restore my soul

Though I walk through the valley of shadows
I will not be afraid
Your rod and staff are my only comfort
And You’ll be with me always

You prepared a table before me
In the presence of my enemies
And you anoint my head with oil
And my cup overflows
My cup overflows with Your love
With Your love

Jesus, my Shepherd and only Provider
You make me lie down in green pastures
You lead me beside the still water
You restore my soul